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Web sites will Go Pink during the month of October to bring attention to Breast Cancer Awareness Month, get people talking about breast cancer, and raise money for research. But to be clear, raising money isn’t the primary purpose of this web event. The hope is that you turn your site pink (in whatever way works for your site), educate yourself about the multiple issues related to Breast Cancer, then take that knowledge and tell someone else what you’ve learned.

— 4 October 2006 —

My Story

I lost my mom to breast cancer on the 15th of July, 1993. She was 10 days away from her 36th birthday and I was 2 months away from my 10th. I found out from my dad who’s words still echo: “Your mom’s suffering is over.”

To backtrack a bit, my mom realized she was sick when she was pregnant with my little brother. She opted to wait until he was born and she had nursed him before seeking treatment, she wanted the best for him and was worried that treatment would affect the baby.

Mom had chemo and radiation, she started a radical macrobiotic diet to try and keep her body clean and healthy. All this had a devastating affect on her strength. She was weak and looked starved. She ate only steamed green veggies, brown rice and… well that was about it. Her legs were stick thin and she had to walk with a cane, eventually she was in a wheelchair. She always had a sense of humour though, even when she felt her worst. She was terribly sarcastic and that never went away, not until the very end.

During her illness she did have a remission which was cause for a huge celebration, but it wasn’t long until the cancer came back with gusto. I remember walking into my grandmother’s house and my mom was sitting at the kitchen table eating a huge piece of cherry cheesecake, this was when I knew she had given up the fight, she wanted to enjoy what time she had left.

The morphine she was on did terrible things to her mind and I know that if she had had the choice she wouldn’t have let me see her like that, but I did and even though it was sad, I cherish every memory I have of her. Unlike my little brother who’s life my mom put above her own, I have many memories. He only has one, it is of pushing her in her wheelchair out on the lawn. He wasn’t quite 3 when she died.

I miss her every single day of my life and wonder constantly what our relationship would be like today had she survived. I know many many people have lost loved ones to this disease but I wish it upon no one else. This needs to stop. Thanks to sites like this we can create awareness which is a great place to start. Thank you.

—Fresh_View

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6 Responses to “My Story”


Carmen
6 October 2006

I am in tears reading your story. I lost my mom to breast cancer
in September 1991. She passed away 2 days after her 41st
birthday. I was 21 at the time. Reading your story
brings back so many memories of what my mom went through.

thank you for what you are doing. The month of October
is very special to me.
Take care. Blessings to you and your family.


Stephanie
8 October 2006

I lost my sister to ancer when she was only 7 and I was 5. This was in 1995. My father had came and told us when we were at a friends house. He was really upset, everyone was, but I didn’t understand the concept of death as I do now. My mother told me, although I do not remeber this, that I had told my sister Kristen to wakeup and that she had been asleep to long. This was at the funeral. I do remeber looking at her in the coffin though. She was pale and cold, she wore her queens dress that she loved so much, and I was waring my princess dress, that day. Although I don’t remember much about her I still will miss the happy and sad times I do remember.


Joanne
9 October 2006

I lost my big sis last year.The memories are still very raw.
She didnt want her two children to see her at the end . Now
I hope I can help them remember her.
God bless.


Jodes
10 October 2006

Your story moved me. I found you in the weirdest of searches, but I an glad I did. I have been raising money since February for the Breast Cancer 3 Day next month in San Diego. I will be walking with 7 other girls on my team and we have raised over $18,000. I have been in the pink for awhile now and if I can figure out how to change my background I will do so on my blog as well. I had a designer do my site, so it may take some work. Keep it up, this is great.


kie_rah
9 November 2006

i can relate to your story as i lost my my mum to breast cancer when i was 6yrs old. i do not remember much about her, only those fatal words ” mums gone shes not coming back. shes out of pain now”


Amanda
27 June 2007

I can relate to your story also..i lost me mom when i was 11 i dont really remember
much about her but i still remeber the words my dad told me you mommys in heavan now… i will never forget those words.



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